madoka magica

I recently rewatched Madoka, and damn this shit is even more devastating the second time around. I'm not getting that theme song out of my head anytime soon.

For the longest time, I only knew of Madoka vaguely as some gut-wrenching doomed yuri thing my friendgroup was obsessed with. I usually stick to more light-hearted tv shows, but I'm glad I eventually caved and made this exception that has now left me wanting to make more exceptions for yuri, my mental stability be damned.

For whatever reason, I tend to find animation more emotionally resonant than live action. There's just so much more room to play with visual storytelling. As someone who dissociates a lot, over stylized settings and visual effects reflect how I process the world. And that juxtaposition between cutesey adolescence and the fluxuation between hope and despair is very much so how I grew up. I'm so tempted to give myself the first witch's kiss as a tattoo but the last tattoo i gave myself did not go well (shitty miffy stick and poke i did while drunk) and lowkey convinced me to quit alcohol lmao.

I just love stories with a well-executed time travel/sci-fi element... Kyubey is such a well-written character and almost my favorite, but my actual favorites are Homura and Kyoko. You can probably already tell from my emo sensibilities that I'm much more of a Homura than Madoka D: I do randomly walk around giving off a thousand yard stare a lot.